So, I know I’ve been gone for a while. Quite a bit has happened; not all of what I wanted to talk about I remember. I remember having an epiphany that will probably make life a little easier. This had to do with something Aubs wrote a little while ago (or was it Devo?), about blocking oneself. It made me think that perhaps for some things I am blocking myself. That’s when the epiphany happened and my brain spilled the beans about some things I already knew but didn’t really think about. Things I’ll be working on and may do an execration for later in the week or something. I like burning things but I don’t have anything nifty to burn things in, so I may just have to go fireless (boohoo).
I was also thinking of doing a spell for jobs and stuff. Right now TB and I are still with the staffing company and it’s getting harder to save as more bills pop up, like his school bill. I did ask Anpu and Set if they could tell me what’s up with all this stuff and what I could do to find my way on this wibblywobbly path, but I got a confusing dream as an answer. Right now I’m just trying to go about life and see what I can do to make things easier.
Speaking of prayer and magic, I moved my room around. Let me tell you it was hard >.> I’m not all that strong and I have solid wood bedroom furniture. Even completely empty with all the drawers removed it took a lot of effort to move my bureau from one side of the room to another. Add in the bed, the bookcase, cleaning, and moving smaller items I was exhausted by the end. However! Moving my room around enabled me to carve out a space to pray at and light candles on. It’s not much, I have a trunk that serves as a great flat surface and there’s only candles there, but it’s an actual space. Now I just wish I had some statues (can you see Set and Anpu roll their eyes and sigh? I can XD)
I’m likely going to start looking for new jobs soon. There’s nothing wrong with the one I have really. I like the kid I work with (even though he seeks to destroy my nerves at times) and I like the place I work. The problem really is how much I make and how easily the job can be taken from me. I honestly don’t make enough money, not for the time I spend there and the travel I do or how much effort the child requires. And certainly not for a job that isn’t permanent. I’m just conflicted because the kid does need someone and he’s doing better with me there and is getting attached to me (not to say I’m not getting attached to him).
Really the person I’m worried about is TB though. He needs a job in his field and isn’t getting one. All the effort he put in school, he really enjoys graphic design too. He’s been looking since he graduated and he is having worse luck with cases than I am. I just want him to find a job in his field that he’ll like. I’m hoping and praying that one of these recent firms he’s contacted will respond positively and hire him. He could use the confidence boost anyway and he would be ecstatic to have a job that he likes and that is steady and permanent. Hell, I would be beyond ecstatic at that, because he would be happy and it’s what he wants and likes.
On yet another note, I think Aset has decided to back away until I’m actually ready for Her. The other night when I went to pray and light Her candle it refused to light. Like, the lighter wouldn’t light and when it did the wick wouldn’t catch. I told Her I got the hint and I haven’t felt Her presence since. That’s ok I guess, I still liked having Her around, but it’s not like I’m going to be jumping into the mommy and wife roles anytime soon. Guess I’m back to the boys’ club huh? Well, now I’m going to go to bed because I’ve stayed up way too late working on a new resume and setting up accounts on job hunting websites as a childcare provider. We’ll see what the morning brings I guess!
The Woods of My Heart 
Devo, Duskenpath, and Larissa are all graphics related majors. Devo works in her field, iirc, but neither Dee nor L do. Dee is hoping with graduate school, she will succeed, but…
It’s hard. It is so hard to go to school and do what you are told – get good grades, graduate, and your dreams come true – only to realize that’s a lie. It doesn’t matter if you do those things or not, you get stuck in the same line as everyone else for the same jobs. And invariably, the graduates are denied because of ‘not enough experience.’ It’s bullshit.
All the new generations are most educated generations and they’re hardly better off than any other generation before them.
yeah, I just wish these jobs would be more reasonable with their experience requirements. The lowest I”ve seen is two years, some are demanding 5 to 7. He’s thinking of going back to school to get certified as a graphic design teacher even though he really would prefer to be a designer. At this point I”m just trying to encourage him the best I can and help him look for jobs and potential firms that might hire him.
It’s the whole thing that makes this stuff even worse. You’re supposed to have experience, but no one will hire you to get the experience. It’s this stupid circle that you’re forced to go round and round in because all companies don’t care about their people, but about their companies’ images and the products and blah, blah, blah.
yeah, at this point I’m just gonna stick with childcare until I can finish nursing school and start that. NURSES ARE THE SHIZ YO, THEY ALWAYS NEED NURSES.
I know you were talking to Aine, but thank you for your comment. I really appreciate it. It’s rough I’ll admit. The most I could do was work with a client who absolutely drives me bananas and isn’t really on the ball with providing payment when he should, but it’s the most I could do to keep working with him so my “years of experience” rack up. That and my best friend hired me to design his massage therapy logo, but that’s about it.
It’ll be okay though. Eventually. Ya’ know? I just keep my head up and power through it somehow. I keep telling myself when something’s meant for me it’ll come along, but I don’t know how much I believe it anymore.
I’ll just add this now. The worst thing anyone can tell me is to “stop waiting for something to come and go look.” That’s going to do more harm than good since I spend essentially every extra minute in the day I can looking for these jobs. I even search for these jobs using the internet on my iPhone.
I’m only bringing this up because Aine said someone might respond that way and the moment she said it I was almost instantaneously offended because only I know how hard I work and no one else. Sorry if that comes off hostile to anyone.
I love you. Things will get better love
I love you too; and I know it will. Like I said when the job that’s meant for me presents itself I’ll know. That’s why I’m going to try to get this teaching certification; though I’m still going to need an amount of experience. That’s always the hard part XD
In the famous words of Dory, “just keep swimming.”
he can swim too lol
The job market is brutal.
But I am glad to hear that things seem to be progressing elsewhere. Take care of yourself and good luck to you and TB.
The Netjeru seem really good about stepping back when things get too crazy, although how far back they go depends on your arrangement with them. For example, the Pesedjet had no problem stepping WAY back (as long as they get attention once a week), but such a thing wouldn’t be an option with Bast.
In general, it seems that they would rather not overload us mortals more than necessary. 😉
As for images, if you have access to a color printer and nice picture frames, printing something out, then framing it is an acceptable option in lieu of statues.
I didn’t know my printer at home worked, but now I do, so now all I need is a frame lmao
I feel like a butthead coming to make this comment, but in terms of Anpu statues, were you thinking of something like this: http://www.stealstreet.com/Egyptian-Anubis-Statue-with-Spear-p/ss-tlt-1142.htm?
Sorry for the weird attack. :p
weird attack? what on earth are you talking about woman XD and no, I actually don’t like most of the statues of Him anthropomorphized. Once I get some money I can probably get one from a store in the city. They actually sell statues of many Netjer, even very nice ones of Set. Only drawback is that most of them are upwards of forty bucks
Ooo, you’re so lucky to have shops like that. *jealousjealous*
Anpu gave me a thwack in the brain. Reached right into the skull and. . . WHUMP. Weirded me out because it’s been months since I’ve heard from him. (Like, almost seven?)
But, to get to the point he wants me to: if you ever find yourself desirous of an anthro statue of Anpu (like the one I linked to), feel free to drop me a line. It seems he’d like me to keep that offer open. XD
Lol, I’ve never been instructed to pass along a statue before. Pretty cool! :3
PS: had to rewrite this comment 102354632635 times before it didn’t sound illiterate.
lol wow, that’s pretty cool :3 I guess my main problem with most anthro statues are that they are just kinda scrawny and not…just I dunno. Maybe I’m too picky lol
Or maybe you have a great sense of discernment. 😉
I’ll admit, it does take some time to get used to Anpu’s anthro forms. Same thing with Bast, too, though. I think it’s because, popularly, both are generally seen in their animal forms, so the anthro forms are a bit of a shock to the system. Oh, and the animal forms are cool. :p
lol they are cool, but I know some of the Bast one’s I’ve seen are like, insulting to her. It’s all about the “sex appeal” with many of the goddesses
Urgh, yes. Statues like this one piss me off: http://www.amazon.com/Egyptian-Goddess-Bastet-Statue-Deity/dp/B005WWHXMY/ref=sr_1_3?s=furniture&ie=UTF8&qid=1357611324&sr=1-3&keywords=bastet. It’s a beautiful statue, but that is NOT Bast.
At least there are more traditional statues of her out there. Like this one: http://www.amazon.com/Holding-Sistrum-Egyptian-Figurine-5312/dp/B001S5MM66/ref=reg_hu-rd_add_1_dp. *drools*
Other goddesses. . . aren’t so lucky. 😦
I’m sure some goddesses don’t mind having statues that are a little sexy, but most artists take it too far: huge boobs, vacuous expressions, scanty clothing or none at all, etc.
Gods aren’t off the hook, either. This one is nuts: http://www.amazon.com/Egyptian-Anubis-Statue-Black-Figurine/dp/B0052TIQRS/ref=pd_rhf_dp_s_cp_1.
ugh I keep seeing that statue of Anpu on amazon XD I’m like “He’s a very tough deity but, just, NO” lol
You can be tough without bulging muscles. ‘specially if you’re a god.
I kind of like the “srs face” that statue has, though. A lot of times it seems artists will kind of slap on a blah facial expression on their statues. Nice to see the more serious side of Anpu’s character depicted (at least in the face).
Found another odd statue of him. This one’s a bit easier on the eyes: http://www.designtoscano.com/product/egyptian/egyptian+statuary/the+egyptian+god+anubis+sculpture+-+ny309002.do?sortby=bestSellers#. Can you tell I often go around looking at statues of the gods, even when I has no monies? Lol. Toscano’s seriously over-priced.
This statue of Set *would* be pretty cool, except the head and tail are wrong: http://www.amazon.com/Ancient-Egyptian-Statue-Chaos-Darkness/dp/B005WW8T72/ref=pd_sim_hg_3. Also not sure if that’s the side of Set you’d want to see every time you came to shrine, but at least the musculature is more realistic and the pose isn’t too bad.
yeah that other statue of Anpu is a little odd, maybe cuz I’m not used to seeing Him in ivory. His face is better though, not so blah, more…serene and uncaring lol not uncaring like “I don’t give a shit” but “you don’t bother me”. Kinda like this picture: http://www.deviantart.com/morelikethis/9607764#/d1pglna
I don’t mind the one of Set, though you’re right, the ears are wrong lol