Bitter Sweet

Today’s title is brought to you by Flyleaf.

So, I revealed to my mother that I was pagan now, not just pagan but polytheistic pagan (to be fair a good portion of pagan religions are polytheistic, but whatev). As one can imagine she wasn’t happy about it, but to her credit she didn’t explode in rage or anything. She’s most upset about the polytheism involved in Kemeticism, if you read my first post to the blog then you know all this, but she’s not happy. Now, it’s not unusual for me to receive Christian chain mails from my family considering I was one up until a month ago (well, in the sense I grew up in the church. I was never baptized so technically I was never Christian), but the particular one my mother sent me was a bit annoying. And she also sent me a link to a website because she really has a strong problem with polytheism. I would venture that the polytheism is the number one thing she doesn’t like about my changing religions (and that I’ve “never given Christianity a chance”).

The chain mail started off with these lines:

“If you’re spiritually alive, you’re going to love this!

If you’re spiritually dead, you won’t want to read it.

If you’re spiritually curious, there is still hope!

Why Go To Church?”

You see why that would annoy me yes? And the link she sent me:  This is a website about a spiritual path I’ve never heard of and can’t pronounce and that is monotheistic and basically worships the Abrahamic God. She texted me later asking if I saw the site (I had read it out of respect) and saying she sent it to me because she knows I’m still searching. I’m not and never said I was, and I told her that I wasn’t still searching, but that I appreciated it. I haven’t heard from her since. Perhaps she just got distracted, I am spending time with her tomorrow so perhaps I’ll find out then. Hopefully she won’t keep sending me links, I think I’d prefer what the mother of a fellow poster on does, sends him crosses in a box. If anything I’d probably hang them up somewhere. Really, I’m truly curious how she finds this shit, she sends me a lot of links (not religion related) and I often wonder how she finds the time and how she gets the idea to look up some of the things she sends me info about.

I’m hoping this doesn’t because a non-discussable topic between us. I actually really like discussing theology in general, and quite frankly I want my practice to not scare her like I’m making sacrifices or anything. The problem here is ignorance and a desire to hold on to fear and singular view of rightness. She’s trying really hard not to be judgmental and get all emotional over leaving the One True God again, but I imagine this is not gonna be an easy thing to settle.


I had something I wanted to say about Aubs Tea’s post on her blog about isfet, but I can’t remember now, so it’s moot I guess.


2 thoughts on “Bitter Sweet

  1. Most parents find the change in religion the hardest thing to accept from their children. I think this stems from the heartfelt belief that the life they created in us, as their children, will be their eternity later on. (A sort of Kemetic belief there, huh?) And when you switch to a faith differing from theirs, it makes it that much harder for them to believe that their eternity will continue, unabated. I think, too, they always hope that whatever failings they had, whether it be religion or otherwise, we’ll be able to correct. And in not practicing the birth religion, therefore, this dream will never happen.

    In all honestly, I am so very lucky to have had a mom that didn’t agree with the Catholic church way back before it was hip to disagree with the Catholic church. This led her to various other religious beliefs and practices (namely, Methodism when I was a child). I think, too, the death of my father helped her a lot in accepting my chosen path. She went searching for alternative means to get over his death, which opened her up to more esoteric teachings and whatnot. She doesn’t understand it, makes jokes, and says some inappropriately amusing things at times, but she supports my choice. And that’s something, I realize, that not everyone has.

    I’m planning on writing an entry in the next few days about one of the ways I try to live in ma’at, which is in regards to my Christian friends. Maybe in my posting that, it will give you some ideas on how to contend with your mother’s insistence that you’re “just looking.”

    Also, comment whenever you think to do so. I’m going nowhere. 🙂

    • Well, neither of my parents has really brought it back up, which I’m fine with for now. I also notice that while my kindle doesn’t have realize it does have brouhaha. I can’t imagine what the programmers were thinking when they left out realize for brouhaha rofl back to the subject, i think the tricky thing will be if I’m asked to say grace because I no longer say a Christian-type grace since I no longer pray to Him.

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